Winter

I do not like this cold weather. Not at all. I hate it because I walk to and from school (I live about a block away) and I freeze everyday. I would ride the bus in the morning but it picks me up at 7 and that means I got to wake up at 6 and I'm also on the bus for an hour. I don't like riding the bus. I wish my mom would take me to school, but she's got to get ready for work. I don't like the frigid weather. The only good thing that comes out of this weather is the hot chocolate and of course Christmastime. It seems that this time of year, I'm always getting sick. And I don't like it.

Searching for the Right Christmas Present

I love Christmas, don't get me wrong. But searching for that one perfect present for someone special could be stressful. This is the first year for me that I have a boyfriend at Christmastime. I have no idea what to get him. I don't want to spend too much money on him, if he doesn't spend so much on me. Or the other way around. He spends a fairly good amount of money on my gift and me, not get him something of the same value. What to get that special someone for Christmas? How do you know? I enjoy gift giving. Some people are easier to shop for than others. There's the people who already have everything and you have no idea what to get them or there's the people who you just find something for them and you know that that's the gift for them. My favorite part about gift giving in wrapping presents. I don't know what it is but, I love wrapping presents. I'm really good at it.

What Christmas Means to Me

Christmas means a lot of things to me. But the main important thing is family. I cherish my families company every chance I get. Family means a lot to me. Christmastime is when we are all together and we exchange gifts and eat a lot of good food. To me Christmas isn't just about the presents. Granted, I like recieving presents (who doesn't?) however it's not so much about the recieving as it is the giving part of it. Christmas is about being with loved ones.

NKOTBSB

I feel like a dork for blogging about this, but I'm going to go ahead and blog about it. So, last Sunday I believe it was the American Music Awards and low and behold at the very end of the award show the New Kids On The Block and The Backstreet Boys performed some songs together and I was so excited. Obviously New Kids on the Block are before my time, but when I was a little kid I loved the Backstreet Boys so seeing them on stage was nostalgic for me. When my mom was younger she had an obsession with the New Kids on the Block. I like them too. I've heard some of their songs before. But I'm just so excited because New Kids on the Block and the Backstreet Boys are going on tour together next summer. And I want to go see that concert.

My Thanksgiving Break

My Thanksgiving Break was awesome. It consisted of eating 3 different Thanksgiving meals with my family (ies) And all weekend long I was eating on leftovers. So you can imagine how stuffed I am! I don't even wanna think about food right now. But anyways, Friday I saw 2 movies in one night Tangled then Harry Potter. They were both amazing movies. Since my family (grandparents, brother, dad and uncle) wanted to see Harry Potter together Saturday but my grandpa had to work on Saturday. I already had plans to see Tangled with my boyfriend on Friday so, since I was going to be at the theaters I saw Harry Potter right after Tangled. So that night was a good night. Spent time with my boyfriend (today is our 1 month by the way) :) and I also spent time with my family and I saw two great movies.

My Family Thanksgiving Tradition

We have your typical Thanksgiving dinner. The whole family gets together. Each adult is supposed to make a dish and bring it in. My aunt every year, makes the turkey. And that turkey is delicious! I'm not usually a big fan of turkey. Sometimes it can be way too dry for me but, my aunt's turkey is perfect. It's not too dry for my tastes. We also have yams (sweet potatoes), corn, stuffing, rolls, ham, mashed potatoes, green beans etc. the list goes on and on. My favorite thing to eat this time of year is pumpkin pie. It's so delicious!!! I'm getting hungry just typing this blog. After we eat we usually watch football and that's the time when I normally take a nap. So yeah, I literally pig out on Thanksgiving!!!

Drama *From Last Week*

I’m so sick and tired of all the drama that goes on. I guess that’s high school for ya. But still, people need to be a bit more mature about things. A certain someone needs to stop dwelling on the past. There’s a reason why that person in thier past didn’t make it to thier future. Things weren’t meant to be. I understand the jealousy. I didn’t mean for them to be mad at me. But I’ve got nothing to apologize for. For once in my life I was (and still am) truly happy, and then this stuff starts to happen. Is it really worth it? Staying with a guy, who I care about deeply, that has this drama that comes around in his life. I just don’t know what to do. I don’t need any of this crap. I have problems of my own that I need to deal with and I don’t want to deal with other people’s problems. They just need to learn to keep their mouths shut. Had they kept their mouths shut in the first place. None of this stuff would’ve happened.

Fall

It's that time of year where it gets dark earlier. I'm not too fond of it. I don't like the colder weather too much. The good thing about Fall to me is the leaves before they fall off the trees. I think all the leaves when they change color are so pretty. Whenever they fall off of the tress however they're not as pretty anymore. The wind does get on my nerves sometimes. I love Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is a time where I pig out. I absolutely love all the food. Sweet potatoes and pumpkin pie are possibly my most favortie foods this time of year.

Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift is absolutely amazing to me. I bought her newest cd this weekend and I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! If only this album was out 2 weeks ago. It would've helped me out tremendously through a rough break up. I can relate to some shape or form to almost all her songs. I love how this album is her most personal one to date. Each song is like a "confession" to a certain someone where she had the chance to say something and she didn't. Each song is like a journal entry. Taylor Swift is really talented and I think she's so pretty. For someone like me that's an aspiring songwriter, it's nice to have someone like Taylor Swift to idolize.

Best Halloween(s)

I can't really remember my best Halloween memory. I think the best ones have to be the ones from when I was younger. I absolutely loved to trick or treat. One year I rembember I was Belle. She was probably my favorite Disney Princess growing up. I think one of the main reasons being because I can relate to her. Plus, she's got brown hair like me. I miss being a little kid. I wish I can still go trick or treating but I'm too old. I don't have any plans this year. Last year I watched a bunch of scary movies and I regretted it. Because I had the most freakiest nightmares that night that I've ever had in my entire life. So, I know I'm not doing that again.

What I Was Scared of As a Child

When I was a child I was scared of thunderstorms. Especially thunder. If there was a thunderstorm and it was during night time, I'd take my blankets into my parents room and I'd sleep in thier bedroom with them. Clowns is another thing I was scared of as a child. One night I was walking through the living room and my dad was watching some kind of scary movie that had clown like zombies in it. As soon as I saw that I ran towards my room screamin. Ever since I've been scarred. I still don't like clowns...I'm just not as scared of them as I used to be. I had a cousin who had a bunch of the porcelian baby clown things and I would refuse to go in her room. I was so scared of them.

What Was I Thinking??

Seriously, what was I thinking? The guy that was previously in my life turned out to be a jerk. I never want to see his face, AGAIN!!! He broke my heart so badly. I mean, I've had my heart broken many times before...this past heartbreak was just one too many. I've cried all my tears. I should've realized from the beginning that we were going to end up this way but I was way too naive. He is a jerk, that's not worth my time or my tears. I will find somebody better who is sensitive towards my feelings and loves me unconditionally. I honestly regret ever taking him to that STUPID DANCE!!!

Big Time Obsession

There's this show on Nickelodean about a boyband called Big Time Rush and I think I'm obsessed. It's gotten pretty bad. That's pretty embarrassing to admit. Since I have a younger sister she watches Nick (along with Disney Channel) a lot. And I've always watched the show but I never realized how much I LOVE it til just recently. It's a really good show about 4 guys that are friends from Minnesota and they landed a recording contract, together they are the band Big Time Rush. They're music is FANTASTIC!!! I have all thier music on my i-Pod. I find them so cute. I don't have a favorite. If I had to choose I'd say Kendall, but I like ALL of them though.

My Life Without Potatoes

Where to begin?! I would not be able to survive without potatoes. Potatoes are probably my favorite vegetable. I don't think they even belong in the category of vegetables because potatoes are just way too delicious. Without potatoes there won't be any potato chips, backed potatoes, mashed potatoes etc. I believe my life would be just horrifying without potatoes. They are way too deliecious!!

Confuzzled

I've been very confused lately. I finally got the guy that I've been liking for sometime now. He's been sending me mixed signals. It's been weird. One moment he's really into me and he acts like he cares then the next moment he's "distant." I don't really know what to do right now. I walked by him today and I was looking the other direction and the minute I noticed I walked by him it was too late to say something. So then I tried like shouting to get his attention and he just walked right on by. We would be going out for exactly 2 weeks this Friday. I just wish that everytime we are together, would be like the night of Sadie Hawkins. That night was absolutely amazing.

Laughter

"A family that laughs together stays together." (found on inside of Dove dark chocolate wrapper.)

Laughter in my opinion brings people closer together. I believe laughing is what makes the world go round. Laughter is contagious. If your specific personality type is bubbly and optimistic, I'm sure if you laugh...everybody around you will laugh. Laughing is something that anybody can do. It doesn't matter if your young or your old. Personally, I love to laugh. I don't think I've ever gone a day without laughing.

Last Friday Night

So, my previous blog I kindof went on a rampage about how I thought the guy of my dreams didn't pay his obligation and I did for him...he paid it that morning and they just never took his name off of it. I felt bad for being mad at him for no reason. But, everything got straightened out. I got my money back. And I ended up having the time of my life. I didn't want the night to end. It was too perfect. Now I'm anxious to see what the future holds for us. I'm looking forward to more dances to come. Prom! I might actually have a date to prom this year. At least I'm hoping.

Pretty Eventful Day To Say The Least

This morning I asked the guy I like to Sadie Hawkins, finally and he said YES. I was so excited and I'm still very excited. During lunch today I go and buy my ticket, come to find out he's on the obligation list. Well, not anymore. I paid for his obligation with my leftover birthday money. I really want to go to the dance with him so badly that I paid for his obligation and I went ahead and paid for his ticket. That's $30 that was spent in one lunch period. Half of my money. I'm really livid right now, at the same time I still want to go to the dance with him. Our relationship is off to a rocky start (if there ever becomes a relationship.) I just can't believe it. I was so excited this morning, I couldn't stop gushing then I found out he was on the obligation list...unFREAKINbelievable!!! My heart right then and there sank to the ground. Since I paid for his ticket and his obligation he owes me $25 he also owes me his life. And he better pay me back. He better be really greatful or else. I also hope that I have a fun time at the dance/football game. I would also make one heck of a girlfriend because I spent $25 for his butt to go to the dance.

My (Non-existant) Love Life

So there's this boy that I've had my eye on for sometime and I want to ask him to Sadie Hawkins but I'm not really sure how. I've never really talked to him, maybe once or twice. And I see him between classes almost every blue day. I think he's really cute. It kills me. Urggghhh!!! I don't know why I'm so shy. I don't know what the problem is. You know when you glance over at somebody towards thier direction and then they look at you and you have that awkward stare for about a second?? Yeah, that happened between us last week in C.A.P. Group. If I'm going to ask him to Sadie's I better hurry before it's too late. Tomorrow is the perfect opportunity because of the on-demand testing and we're going to be with our C.A.P. group for 2 hours. If I don't ask him then, or at least start some kindof conversation with him, then I don't know what else to do.

Proverb - Hurled Stones

There hasn't really been vrey many times where someone's ever said anything bad about me or has found anything bad about me, fortunately. Of coarse no one is perfect. Everybody makes mistakes sometimes. So there's obviously people in this world that live in glasshouses and through stones per se. I admit, I've been in that situation before. I might have said some things that were possibly hurtful to others when those weren't my intentions. I'm not an extremely bad person. I tend to think about others before I think of myself. So, I can say that I've never really been the recipient of hurled stones.

My Daddy

I am most like my daddy. Everybody says we look alike, in the face. We have the same hair color, eye color, things like that. I can kinda see it when I look at our pictures. My dad and I act a lot alike, more than anything else. He's more of a laid back kind of person as for my mom she's more outgoing and energetic. I'm laid back, reserved type person just like my dad is. So, I can say that I resemeble my dad in a lot of ways. Obviously he's not a girl. But, the way we carry ourselves and our facial features you can definately tell we're related. It helps that I'm a dadddy's girl. If I wasn't...that probably wouldn't be too good. Just because I'm a lot like my dad. :)

Live Well. Love Much. Laugh Often.

Live Well, Love Much, Laugh Often. is in our kitchen. It's painted on a wood mount type thing. Also, it's in our living room on a picture frame. I like this saying. I think people should go bye what this saying is implying. Living well, it's important to live well. You only have this one life so LIVE IT WELL. Love much, all we need is love! Laugh often, I think laughing is good for people. I try to laugh as much as I can in a day. It's healthy for people to laugh as often as they can. I'm a positive person. I try to always have a smile on my face :)

Senior Year!!

Well this is my first blog of this school year. School has started up AGAIN. Last year of high school, Yay! Just the thought of that gets me all excited. In 9 months it'll be time to graduate. It's exciting but at the same time it's kindof scary. The thought of living on my own is kindof scary. But I think I'll be okay. I'm a mature and responsible young lady. Also, I'm trying to be more organized this year. And I've been writing in my agenda book this past week everyday. Which is strange because the past 3 years I don't think I've ever written down my homework assignments in my agenda. Maybe that's why I was struggling so much with getting my work turned in ON TIME. But I hopefully won't have that problem this year. I'm looking forward to all the senior activities and graduation, of course. It's going to be a fun year. I want to go through this year with no regrets.

Let's Get Physical

So lately I've been exercising like crazy. I'm trying to get my body bikini ready for this summer and the cruise I will be taking because there are going to be loads of hot guys and I don't want my belly flabbing. Flab is not fab! I think it's at the point now that I'm obsessed with exercising. All that I want is to shed a few pounds. The wii fit has been my best friend. For about a week now I've been doing sit-ups and crunches. I've also been riding my bike around the neighborhood . I have got to slim down an inch or 2 in 3 weeks. I think it's possible. I just got to eat healthy, which includes cutting down on junk food and sugary foods and I've got to exercise. If only I've been like this for a year. No telling how skinny I would've been. But I'm a girl how loves food.

Justin Bieber

Oh gosh, where to begin. I'm not real crazy about this dude. I mean, I seriously do not understand the hype that surrounds this guy. Yeah, I think he's cute and I enjoy listening to his music, and he's a talented little dude but I just don't see why girls are going crazy over him. They are like obsessively crazy. I don't think I was that bad when I had my Jonas Brothers frenzy. Honestly I don't. Justin Bieber is just not all that special. I don't know. I don't mind him but I don't like him either. My little sister Ashley says that he's her boyfriend and that's cute :) She'll be in the kitchen singing Baby. It's adorable.

TEWWG Thoughts of the book

I kind of enjoyed the book Thier Eyes Were Watching God. I've got to admit that it's not one of my favorites but it was a good book. I liked it better than Off Mice and Men and I especially liked it so much better than the Scarlet Letter. Young women can learn valuable life lessons from Janie. The way she stood up for what she believed in, I wish I was that way...to an extent. The story made me laugh, and made me cry and made me think. It's funny how it ends becuase Janie doesn't end up with her Prince Charming. I always thought (when I was reading the book) that she was going to end up with the man of her drams and live happily ever after but she didn't. Well, she didn't end up with a man of her dreams but I'm sure, at least hoping, that she ended in a happily ever after. Because she sure deserves it.

Boy Meets World

I seriously think that this show should come back on television. Well, it does at 6 in the morning but I'm not up that early, I wish it would come on a little later than that. Boy Meets World was a really great show. I remember growing up watching that show. I didn't really understand the concept of some of the episodes (me being a little kid) but I still enjoyed it. The other night I was watching some clips on youtube and I about died laughing. I forgot how funny the show actually was. I miss it. Oh well. Probably during the summer I'll record the episodes at 6 so that way I can watch them later. That sounds like a good idea.

Summer Plans

I'm so excited. I officially have some plans for the summer. Me and my family are going to go on a cruise in June. We will be departing from Mobile, Alabama June 14th and we are going to Cazumel and Calica Mexico down by Cancun. I'm excited. I'ave never been to Mexico or a cruise before let alone been outside of the country so it'll be my first time. I can't wait. I am a little scared. Just thinking about motion sickness in the event of a storm or something. That makes me nervous. Or like that one movie Posiden or whatever where the people were on a cruise and a giant wave knocked the boat upside down. I don't want to think about that. But the chances of that happening are like one in a million.

Summer =)

I'm so ready for summer. I mean I have nothing major planned but school is driving me crazy. It's driving me to the brink of insanity. I have piles and piles of homework which I only have myself to blame. It's stupid procrastination. I've had that problem since freshman year. I guess I'm taking advantage of 1 day between classes. I just hope that next year "my" freshmen from KO learn from my mistakes or otherwise they'll be screwed. Summer was the title of my blog so I should be talking about summer. Summer is by far the most exciting season of the year. It does stink I'm stuck babysitting my little sister all summer, but oh well I have nothing else better to do. I'll probably take my driving test to get my intermediate liscense (still haven't gotten it yet.) My dad might take me and my brother somewhere for like a mini vacation. I don't think we will be able to afford a huge vacation to like the beach or something like that. I've been wanting to go to Graceland. So I'm hoping we will do that. It sounds fun. After all I am obsessed with Elvis Presley!!! :)

Country Music

Thought I'd blog about country music. Boring, right? I know. I'm all out of ideas of what to blog about. I don't mind listening to country music. I listen to just about everything. I like country music. Mainly because when I was younger I grew up listening to country music. That's all my grandparents ever listen to. Everytime I hear an old ('90s country song) on I reminence about my childhood. It was a good one, listening to Faith Hill. Country music is not all that bad. Speaking of I'm listening to Rodney Adkins right now on Pandora (I made a station for Josh Turner music.)Tim McGraw is another one of my favorite country artists. And I can't leave out my girl, Taylor Swift. I freaking LOVE her. She's so cool!

KOM

I had a very productive day today of KOM. It was so much fun. I didn't expect for it to be so much fun. We did these really fun "ice-breaker" activities where we got to meet some new people. It's always great to meet new people. As a matter of fact, even though I'm shy I love to meet new people. The dance we learned was probably my favorite part. As dorky and embarassing as that sounds it was fun. I love to dance (I'm not really good at it.) I'm looking forward to kick-off orientation day where we get to meet "our" freshmen. A reason why I decided to join KOM is because it would've been nice when I was a freshman to have a mentor helping me with my way through the school year. I was practically lost mentally and physically. I'm hoping I make an impact on them.

Elvis Presley

I feel like a grandma saying this, but I'm IN LOVE WITH ELVIS PRESLEY!!! I think I've fallen for his charm. Especially when he was in his 20's. Oh goodness gracious, he was so good looking. I'm swooning. I have a good majority of his songs on my iPod. Call me crazy but that true. I wish I was alive during his hay day. There's no telling what trouble I would've got myself into. haha. He'd probably have a ton of restraining orders against me. I swear when I was watching Blue Hawaii the other day, I don't think I ever moved a muscle. I was so captivated by him. I just have to go visit Graceland. I've been dying to. He is a legend. Nobody would ever replace him.

Tim Urban (American Idol)

I keep up with American Idol every year. My favorite this year had to be Tim Urban I guess because I'm infatuated with him. OMG, he's just too cute for words. He does have a good tone to his voice. I'm going to miss him on American Idol. I really loved him. I think it was unfair how he left last week on the Idol Gives Back episode. Every year on the Idol Gives Back show they send no one home, but this year they just had to send Tim home and make me sad. I think it was unfair. And I was crying. It was bad enough, the footage that was shown really jerked tears from my eyes. Then I found out the news about Tim and I was so sad. Never in all the seasons I've watched American Idol have I cried over somebody leaving. That was so crazy. I was sobbing and I was depressed for a week. I feel like the Sanjia girl. haha. At least I still have Aaron the 17 year old. I don't know what I'll do if he gets sent home.

Weird

I'm weird. Plain as that. I think that everybody is weird in some shape or form. I know I am. I would say why I'm weird but I'd have to save that for another blog. There's too many reasons to name. I think there's nothing wrong with being weird...or unique. I actually think it's pretty cool. Personally I'd rather be weird than normal because normalcy is just boring. Just think if every single person in the world was normal. We'd be living a pretty bland and boring lifestyle.

TEWWG (thoughts on the book so far)

I kindof like this book so far. I mean I like it so much better than Of Mice and Men and Scarlet Letter. I love the message that this book partakes. It's really sweet. The only think I don't like about it is the dialogue. Half of the time I'm trying to figure out what the heck they're talking about. I'm liking this book so far. I'm hoping that I end up loving it. I think it's going to be pretty great. I just love, love, love, love Janie and Tea Cake's relationship. I hope it lasts forever <3 That'll make me happy. I have a feeling something is going to happen to him. That seems to always happen. I get attached to a character (other than the main character) and something ends up happening to them.

My Expectations of Senior Year

Next year seems like it'll be really fun. I am actually really excited and anxious for senior year. I don't really know why. I guess because it's my final year of high school. After I graduate, it's total freedom. I have the whole world to explore. Anyways, I'm getting ready for my future. I've signed up next year to be a peer tutor and KOM. As I've mentioned before in my blogs I plan on being an elementary teacher or possibly special education. I'm not quite sure yet. I don't even know what college I want to go to. I mean I have my sights set on one but it'll be impossible to go there. It would take a miracle. But I'm going to save talking about college for another blog. I'm looking forward to next year and making memories that'll last a lifetime!!!

Junior Year =)

This year was and is full of stress!!! Yeah, I think this year was a roller coaster. There were some days where I felt like nothing else could be better but then there were the days where I thought anything could be better. Time flies by. No kidding. It feels like yesterday I was a freshman and now junior year is coming to a close. And thank the lord. I've had some pleasant experiences. I made some really great friends over the years and our friendship seems to grow more and more each year. That sounds cheesey but it's true. I'm going to miss my friends once everything is said and done (after senior year.) I mean this year has been interesting to say the least.

Glee

I am addicted to this show. I absolutely love it. I love it so much that I thought I would blog about it. So, whenever I heard that this recent episode was going to be Madonna themed I was like "what? You've got to be kidding me?" In like a sarcastic tone because I'm not a real huge fan of Madonna's. I like her music and her as an artist, don't get me wrong, but I just don't like HER as a person. After watching that episode, I think I feel different about her. That episode was AMAZING!! I'm thinking about sending a video for a Glee audition. That would be like my dream come true, to be on that show. That show is incredible. The show is absolutely perfect. I think it sends a good message to high schoolers all over the country.

Prom

Yesterday on ENL DJ McHenry asked Claire Warren to prom. I think that was so sweet. I wish someone would do that for me. I know I'm more of a reserved person and you'd think for someone to do that would embarrass me, but no I think it would be really sweet for someone to do something like that for me. I'm not planning on going to prom. Money is too tight and I don't have a date. If I were to go to Junior Prom I would want a date. Next year is different though. Senior Prom is like a HUGE deal. Date or no date I'm going to go to prom next year. I don't see the point in getting all dolled up and not having a date around your arm to get all dolled up for. So, that's why I'm not going this year. I do have one person in mind I've been dying for him to ask me. I've had a crush on him since forever. I've been sending him some subtle hints, but I don't really know if he's getting the messge. Gosh, boys are so confusing.

Do Looks Really Matter?

You have to admit, than in some cases looks aren't everything but they matter to an extent. Sometimes I dread going to school or out somewhere just by the fact that my hair doesn't go the way I want it to or what not. Some people need to understand that looks aren't everything. I know I don't have supermodel looks but that's okay. I've got my personality to rely on. I'm not going to sit here and say that they don't matter, but there's more important things than that. It's what's on the inside that counts. I hate to be cheesey but it is true. I feel that a person's personality is a better way to judge some one than thier looks. Judging other people is bad. I should've reworded that differently but I'm pretty sure you know what I mean.

Personal Characterization - Of Mice and Men

As you walk through the door of a small room you will see shades of rich colors. In this room there is greens, blues, purples and pinks. There are things clustered everywhere. The girl that lives in this room is a pack rat. Stephanie doesn’t like to throw away anything. As she goes through her stuff she thinks to herself “I never know when I’ll need it.” There is a somewhat neat desk area in the corner. She uses this space to study, every now and then. On top of the dresser is a vase full of flowers. The flowers consist of the colors purple and pink. There are posters of famous people’s faces on the walls. On her dressers there’s a hodge-podge of candles. You can tell that Stephanie is a very sweet person. She’s very genuine and knows who she is. The shades of pink in this young woman’s room represents her kind heart. She’s got a very nice personality. The purple represents her strength. She has a will to stand up to what she feels is right. When it comes to her appearance it’s the same way. She hazel eyes. If you gaze long enough you can tell that she’s been hurt emotionally a lot. Behind those hazel eyes she’s afraid. She is afraid of getting her heartbroken again. Stephanie has deep demples. Whenever she smiles you see a good-hearted girl. Her kind smile tells the world that she’s a friendly person. She will do anything to make people happy. Stephanie has a good head on her shoulders.

Can boys and girls be JUST friends...

...without someone developing feelings for the other? In some cases it may be yes. There's some people who are really good friends and they have no strong feelings toward the other. In my situation the answer is no. So, I've got this friend of mine let's just call him *Bob. Now *Bob has gone through some pretty tough stuff in the past couple of months (his parents are going through a nasty divorce etc etc) and I've been there for him. I'm a friend that he can lean on. Well it seems like everytime we talk he starts to flirt with me, says something really sweet or asks me the question "can we ever be more than friends?" I always answer with a "not so sure" or "I'm not ready for anything serious yet." Those things aren't complete lies. I've had my heart broken one too many times and I don't want to go through that again. I do not see *Bob the way he sees me. I feel like I'm partially to blame here because when we started talking I was being flirtatious and cute. It's all because there was this jerk in my life previous b4 *Bob and I'm guessing I had some sort of void to fill. I don't know. I feel really gulity for using *Bob like I had in the beginning. And I feel that it's to blame for him liking me so much. I just don't know what to do. He's a nice guy but he's not really my type. I'm thinking about coming clean to him but I know that's probably going to devastate him. I feel like I have got to get this thing off of my chest. I just have no idea what to do.

Can't Sleep!!!

I seem to have this problem when it's really late on a school night. I just can't seem to fall asleep tonight for some odd reason. I don't know what it is. Usually on a school night when it's late before I go to bed my mind seems to go on overdrive. I seem to think about a ton of things like right before I go to bed. It is weird how I do most of my thinking out of an entire day when I'm laying in bed minutes before I fall asleep. I think if I could do all of my school assignments like really late at night I think I would make all A's. That goes to show how much time I spend late at night thinking. Nothing else. Just thinking. It drives me crazy! I need sleep. My over active mind needs to chill. I'm losing sleep so much all because my mind seems to be running on a treadmill. That's how much it over activates. I need MORE SLEEP, MUCH MORE SLEEP!!! But I can't seem to FALL ASLEEP!!! Why? Why does this happen to me?

The ACT

I know for a fact that I'm going to be taking the ACT again or 2 more times or something. I should've spent more time on ePrep. I feel like I could've done so much better. I was practically brain dead all that morning. The night before my stomach was killing me and I was tossing and turning all night. Which really stinks. The one night I needed a really good night's sleep...my stomach was aching. Plus I wish I would've paced myself much better. All in all I feel like I could've done much better. I didn't try my best that is for sure. Hopefully I make at least a 21, then I won't worry about taking it again. If I make anything below a 21 then my butt better get in gear. I better study 'til my eyes bleed. I feel like I could've done better on the ACT. It seems like everytime there's this obstacle (situation type deal) no matter how hard I try to overcome it (achieve etc) I feel like I could've done better. I don't know why. I'm not much of an overachiever. I'm just an achiever. I guess me worring about my best not being my best is the overachiever inside of me just trying to get out. (:

Mess of Contradictions

I feel like sometimes I am a mess of contradictions. Well, when it comes to my emotions. There's somedays where I feel broken inside but I try to wear a smile on my face so nobody can know what is truely haunting me. People feel one way but they show a different side of thier emotions. This poem really got me to thinking. I like this poem. Over the weekend, I was really really tired and I guess I was contridicting that because I showed an energetic side. I was really hyper for some reason even though I was tired. Wierd, right? I know. I guess it was because I was so excited it was the weekend. But anyway, there's some instances where I want so badly to say something, but it wouldn't be necessary.

Dead Poet's Society

I really liked this movie. This time watching it was my second time. Freshman year I watched it for the first time. I remember I fell asleep because I was so tired. I kindof regret falling asleep that time because this is such a good movie. I perfer watching movies like this one to doing boring class work. This movie has a little bit of everything in it. I find it awful that Neil commited suicide. That was really sad. All because of his dad was trying to control his life and his future. I guess Neil just felt trapped. But I feel that suicide is not an answer to anything. I love Robin Williams. I love the movies that he's in. The very end is a good scene. "Oh captain my captain." I'm going to start saying that. I find it wierd that this movie has a lot of similiarites to Harry Potter. Of coarse, I would say that because I'm a Harry Potter geek. (:

The Bachelor

This past season of The Bachelor was the first time I actually watched it. I guess it had to do with Jake. I had a bit of a crush on him from the beginning. He's just too cute. He's handsome and a pilot. The season finale Monday made me extremely mad. How can he pick a woman like Vienna over a woman like Tenley? Tenley was perfect for him though. She would've made the better wife and mother. I just can not stand Vienna. Whenever Jake chose her I lost all respect for him. I used to LOVE him!!! I had the hugest crush on him and then he pulls the wool over my eyes. I loved Tenley. She is such a sweetheart and she is pretty. A nice girl like herself deserves a chance of love. It seems like nice girls like myself and Tenley always finish last. Anyways, Jake is going to regret his decision. I just know he is. He is too good for Vienna. If only he could see her for who she truley is. I guess he's just blinded by love. It is disgusting. He told Tenley why he didn't choose her was because they didn't have much of a "spark." And he tried to force it with her. Well, there's more to falling in love than just a "spark" I mean really. Jake and Tenley had more of an emotional connection. And they make the perfect couple. NOT Jake and Vienna. Seeing them together makes me want to barf. I bet a couple of weeks in their marriage Vienna's true colors are going to show. Then Jake's going to realize he made a HUGE mistake choosing her. To top off all of my frustration Jake is going to be on Dancing with the Stars. Come on, really? Yeah, I have to admit part of me is happy. I think he is one handsome devil. The other part of me is just too mad and thinks he's dumb. Any other guy would've chosen Tenley over Vienna. I feel so bad for Tenley though. She must've been heartbroken. I know I would've been.

The Buried Life - My Bucket List

Last night I was watching the Buried Life on MTV and I got inspired. Here is my list of things I would love to do before I die:
1.) vistit the world
2.) road trip through the United States from coast to coast
3.) smile and say "hi" at random people
4.) sing the Star Spangled Banner at a Super Bowl
5.) star in a block buster film
6.) kiss the boy of my dreams
7.) get a tour of the White House
8.) meet president Barack Obama
9.) guest star on an episode of Glee
10.) be an American Idol contestant
11.) rescue an animal in danger
12.) volunteer for as many organizations as I possibly can
13.) write a New York Bestseller book
14.) win the lottery
15.) bungee jump of a bridge
16.) have dinner with George Clooney
17.) take a long drive in a foreign sports car
18.) eat Italian food...in Italy
19.) see a Broadway musical
20.) see John Mayer perform live
21.) be an astronaut for a day

John Mayer

I thought I would blog about John Mayer. I don't know what it is about him. I love him but sometimes I can't stand him. It's pretty wierd. I have a love-hate relationship with him. When it comes to his music I absolutely love him. As a musician I think he's amazing. If I could I would listen to his music all day every day for the rest of my life. I'm in love with his voice. His music has this effect on me it's kindof hard to understand. In his older (younger) videos I think he's gorgeous. Anyways, I remember when I was younger, my parents would constantly argue. I didn't want to hear it especially before I went to bed at night. So, since my mom had his cd (she burned it for me) I would listen to his songs and just drift away. Whenever I listened to John Mayer, it was magical. His music brought me to a safe place where I could feel like I'm at home. I remember the song Your Body is a Wonderland. I loved it. It's amazing how he can take a song about sex and make it sound cute and sweet. As a child, I didn't know what that song really meant. But I remember I loved him as a little kid. My mom wouldn't let me watch the video because she thought it was inappropriate but I'd be like "mom he's cute." She'd say "he's too old." Yeah, she does have a point about that. He's had a really bad past (drugs) so I've heard. What I don't like about him is in his interviews he comes off as a really mean and hateful person. He just says whatever and he expects to get away with it. I also don't like the fact that he has this image of being a 'womanizer' I can see why though. He's a musician! But it still doesn't give him a reason to be a jerk. Have you heard about his recent interview with Rolling Stone magazine? I can't explain how much that upsets me...the things that he says. It's disgusting. I read parts of the article online. I just can't stand the way he talks about people and inappropriate things. He was just way too arrogant. As a musician I'm in love with him. If he could sing to me 24/7 all day everyday I'd be one really happy person.

My Celebrity Crush(es)

Yeah, I have a couple of gorgeous celebrity guys that I'm in love with. To start off I'm going to confess my love for Taylor Lautner. Oh my goodness, I need to keep this school appropriate but when he had his shirt off in New Moon I melted in the theater seat. That boy takes really good care of his body that is for sure. Enough about his body, he's got the cutest face. His smile is to die for. I'm so looking forward to seeing him in Eclipse and more movies. I'm still dying to see Valentine's Day. The only bad thing about that is that him and Taylor Swift make out like a lot and I can just feel the jealousy raging through me. I love Taylor Swift and all but she needs to back-off. I remember when Taylor Lautner was really little in Cheaper By The Dozen 2. He was such a cutie and he still is. I can just go on and on about how much I love this guy. I swear he is my future husband. No joke.
Another one of my celebrity crushes is Nick Jonas of the Jonas Brothers. I have loved him since the very beginning. He's the cutest guy ever (other than Taylor Lautner). Nick Jonas is such an inspiration too. I've been to 2 Jonas Brothers concerts and I've loved every minute of them. And Nick Jonas is also a musician who writes his songs. As a girl I find musicians dreamy. Who doesn't?! Nick Jonas can serenade me any time, any day and any place.

UK Basketball

I am a HUGE UK basketball fan!! And I am proud of it!! I guess my fanatic ways of my step-dad has rubbed off on me. They have done such a good job this year. I remember the passed couple of years they weren't all that great. Then here comes along a new coach, some phenominal freshmen and you got one heck of a basketball team. I enjoy watching them play. They've got some amazing talent. There isn't no doubt about it. I've became a fan of Demarcus Cousins, Patrick Patterson, John Wall and John Calipari on facebook. UK Basketball team is dominating college basketball. I'm normally not much of a sports fan. Every now and then I watch an NFL game on tv and that's about it. I love UK Basketball though. And lately I've been watching NASCAR just because of a 19-year-old boy named Joey Logano. I can go on and on about how much I love that cutie but I'm going to save that for a differnet blog :)

Some of My Favorite Quotes

“Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me.” -?? This quote is a classic. Everybody’s heard it once or twice. I used to tell myself this quote all the time in middle school when I was made fun of.
“If my heart were a house you’d be home.” –Adam Young, Owl City I love his music. And this song is on his new CD. The song is amazing and peaceful. It’s about person being in your heart and knowing that that’s where they belong. I think it’s sweet.
“When life hands you lemons, make lemonade.” -?? This quote is another classic. It says that you need to make the most life. And I try to live by this quote. It is a good one.
“A guy who truly loves his girl doesn’t need to unbutton her shirt to have a better view of her HEART.” -Anonymous A little inappropriate for school but I like it. I wish guys would understand that. You know that there’s more to a girl than how she looks.
“A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left.” –Marilyn Monroe She is right. A wise girl would do those things just because a wise girl would know to do those things just so she won’t get her heart broken. Many girls get their hearts broken on a daily basis. As sad as that is, it is true.
“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” –Dr. Seuss This is a sweet quote. I want to be able to experience that. I’m sure I will some day. 
“There’s always gonna be another mountain, I’m always gonna wanna make it move…always gonna be an uphill battle sometimes I’m gonna have to lose…” –Miley Cyrus, The Climb I wish I could put the whole song as my favorite quote. This is a very inspirational song. Everytime I listen to this song I feel like I have something I can believe in.
“You be the prince and I’ll be the princess it’s a love story baby just say yes.” –Taylor Swift, Love Story This is one of my favorite songs of all time sung by my favorite artist of all time. It gives a person like me hope that there is love somewhere out there and a person’s love story never has an end.
“You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope someday you will join us and the world will live as one.” –John Lennon This is such an amazing song. It has a really good point. I really wish that the world will live together in harmony and peace.
“never regret something that once made you smile.” -anonymous I found this random quote on the internet. I like it. This quote is what I live by.

If you really knew me

If you really knew me well:
• I’m really quiet.
• I have trouble opening up to people, but when I do…that’s when I talk…not a lot though
• I love my family…more than anything else in the world.
• Music is my muse
• I have a good head on my shoulders
• I love the rain
• Warm weather days are my favorite
• My dog, Bruno, is my everything.
• I can’t stand the “r” word
• I love kids!
• Riding in the country side with the wind blowing through my hair, the radio turned all the way up is what I love
• I really enjoy movies
• I love visiting the beach (going to Florida)
• I’m a happy-go-lucky kinda gal
• I love my friends
• My mom is my hero
• I love little kids
• Mountain Dew is my addiction
• My dream is to travel the world
• People's accents fascinate me.

American Idol - Dreams Come True

So I watch American Idol. I love that show. It is my guilty pleasure. I love how it makes ordinary people with extroadinary voices dreams ocme true. It seems like every year when it gets to the season finale I get teary eyed. I can feel thier struggles. I sort of know what it likes to want to give up. I know what it's like when you feel like your trying your hardest but it just isn't good enough. I'm not saying I want to be a singer or anything. That would be pretty sweet though. I have this story I think I need to tell. The other day my step-dad left because he had to pick my brother up from school. I'm in the kitchen washing the dishes and I thought I was home alone. So I have my iPod blaring and I'm singing "When I Look At You" by Miley Cyrus (such a pretty song) and in the corner of my eye I see my step-dad standing in the doorway staring at me. He must've forgotten something. There is no telling how long he was standing there. But I was really embarassed. My step-dad says I sing good. So, I'm guessing he's a fan. :) I don't think my voice is all that great. Yeah, I'm in Chorus. I'm definately not tone deaf, but my 'voice' isn't that great. At least that's what I think.

Driving

I had an amazing time this passed weekend. The weather felt so nice. I actually got to step outside and feel fantastic! Usually in the wintertime when you step outside you are freezing and very miserable. I love the nicer weather. But anyways, my favorite thing about this passed weekend was that I got to drive around. I've had my permit for awhile now, but I never really enjoyed driving that much until last weekend. It was nice. I drove around the countryside. From my grandparent's house (in Utica) all the way to Calhoun. I loved how the wind felt against the side of my face as I had the window down. That was awesome. I love driving because it's like my escape from reality. Other than music, driving is my other escape. I had the radio turned up and nothing could go wrong. I had so much fun!!! I wish the weather was like last weekend everyday.

Letter to my Mom

Dear Mom,

I know we have our days where we don't see eye to eye. And we have those days where no matter what goes on between us or what is said, seems to make the other mad. I love you. I know you love me. I'm so lucky to have a mother like you who loves me unconditionally. That cares about me more than anything else in the world. I don't know what I would do without you. There's days where I'm really angry towards you but at the end of the day I realize that everything is okay. I really do love you. If you weren't my mother I don't know what I would do. I would be lost. I honestly would be lost. Graduating high school does scare me. I can't imagine a life where your not with me. Where you're not with me being a guiding life. When I go off to college (if I go to college) I know I will miss you terribly. As much as I want to get away from Owensboro, I don't want to get away from you for too long. Because I know I'll get homesick and I know that I will miss you so much. It stinks that I don't have a valentine this year. But I'm glad to have a mother like you who I know loves me.

Data Match

I hope I get good ones this year. Last year they lost my data match and I was really mad. And freshman year I was sick the day we took the data match test. So, I haven't had a chance to participate and get the results. I looked at my friends' results and they were some really wierd people. I was like "Oh my goodness." I'm hoping that I don't get wierd people, but I am wierd so it only makes sense that I match with wierd people. Right? haha. Anyways, I could quite possibly find my soul mate. Well, I'm hoping I find my soul mate soon. Of coarse, I blogged about finding my 'missing piece' last time. So I'm not going into detail. Valentine's Day is just around the corner (the Valentine's Day movie looks great, there's so many different and awesome beautiful people in that movie). Valentine's day...another year, me being alone. My mom gets me all kinds of chocolates and candies every year so valentines day for me isn't all that bad. But it is kindof pathetic. Even though I love chocolate. What girl doesn't love chocolate?! I think chocolate is my first true love. :) I'm so off the topic right now.

The Missing Piece

I think the topic for this blog couldn't be more perfect for me at this point in my life. I want to find my signigicant other. Other people's missing piece would be someother place in the world, or a best friend. There's some people who already feel whole and don't have to worry about a missing piece. But for me I feel my missing piece would be a significant other. A boy who would love me for me. He will find me beautiful inside and out. He'd do anything for me. My "prince charming" would be a gentleman. Not pressuring me to do something I don't want to and loves my flaws. I want somebody to love and somebody to love me. Is that too much to ask for? I'm not saying I'm desperate just that sometimes I feel lonely. I'm getting tired of being single. I feel like there's this hole inside of me and I need someone to fill it. As I'm on this journey to find my true love I find it harder with each passing day. I'm not going to give up, though. I will someday, hopefully cross paths with my Mr. Right and then I'll have my happily every after. But I can only hope. There's gotta be somebody for me out there. Just like the Nickelback song says. I'm such a hopeless romantic!!!

Imperfect is the New Perfect

I've been listening to this song called Imperfect is the New Perfect by Caitlyn Crosby. Amazing song with an awesome message. But this song has got me to thinking. Flaws are what makes each and everyone of us uniquely beautiful. I may not be a size 1. God made me this way for a reason and I don't want to change a thing about my imperfections (body wise). I'm healthy and happy and that's what truly matters. There's these girls that go to extremes just be skinny. And I'm talking like anorexic and bulemic. I wish people would understand that it's not attractive when you practically look like a toothpick because your so skinny. And it's not healthy either. I wish all these magazines will show young girls that people come in all shapes and sizes. And everybody's unique. But I feel that uniqeness is what makes a person beautiful inside and out. Where I'm trying to get at in this blog is that you should embrace your flaws. Don't be afraid to be yourself. It's cool to be different!!! :)

Where the Wild Things Are

I never really thought of the symbolism this children's book has to real life. Just goes to show that in books especially symbols can be found everywhere. You got to have a mind of a literature person. I don't really know the word for them but anyways talking about the book Where the Wild Things Are, sometimes I feel like I want to escape to my own kingdowm and bring out the "wild thing" in me. Sometimes I want to escape and enter the world of rumpus of the wild things. I could be the queen like Max was the king. I really want to see the world and explore different things but then after all that craziness, I would like to come home to some hot dinner that my loving mother had fixed especially for me. Then I wouldn't feel so lonesome. I feel once I would escape, I would miss home terribly. As soon as I go off to college I know for a fact I'll be home sick. Anyways, I love this book. I remember when I was a kid my mom read me that book almost every night. When we read this book in class it brought me back so many memories to my childhood. I haven't seen the movie. I was with my dad when my mom saw it with my little sister and she said she didn't like it! I was like "oh my gosh." I couldn't believe it.

Last Night

I had the freakiest night last night. Here I was laying in bed letting my mind wonder off. It was about 11 when I heard a dog whining like right outside my window. This dog sounded really pitiful. I knew it wasn't my dog because that's not how my dog normally sounds so I just decided to peak out the window to see what was going on. My tv was still on and I had a little bit of light in my room. I peaked out the window and there's this dog who looks like it wandered away from home and is crying so pitifully and obnoxiously that I knew if it wasn't going to shut up soon I wasn't going to be able to sleep. I thought about going out there to get it some water and give it company for awhile because I felt so bad for this dog. But it was getting late but anyways I'm peaking out the window and around the corner there's this person walking. And this person is limping and it looks like they were smoking a cigarette or it was probably light from their cell phone I have no clue. I figured it was the dog's owner. So I was standing at my window and as the mysterious person was walking around the corner they pause and it looks like they were staring at my window I'm guessing that they could see me peeking through my window but they were standing in that same spot for the longest time and it was freaking me out. So I jumped back away from my window not knowing if this person was capable of doing something dangerous. I thought it was a good idea to wait a few minutes. So as I waited I noticed that the dog had stopped barking/whining. Then I went back to the window and both the mysterious person and dog were gone.

Magazines

I have an obsession with magazines. I get J-14, Popstar, Tiger Beat, Seventeen and Twist as many times a month as I can. It's pretty crazy and embarrassing to admit. I have this tub full of magazines that date back to 2 summers ago. Yeah, it is crazy. I have this obsession with celebrities. I guess it's a teenager thing. You know because when you are a teenager you're finding out who you are like your identity and I have all these celebrities that I love. I just have this facination with reading these things about celebrities. Just last weekend I got the lastest issues of J-14 and Twist. I found some interesting stuff in those magazines. I'm thinking when I get older I could probably be a magazine editor. I guess because I love magazines. This probably wasnt' a good topic to blog about because I don't know what else to put. I just lost my train of thought...

Ligeia by Edgar Allan Poe

This story is challenging I can see why Mrs. McDaniel put me in a group with the story. I'm guessing because she thinks that I'm intellegent enough to read a difficult story. Ummph...yeah right. I'm not that smart. Actually I guess I am smart. Like book smart wise I am but I have no common sense whatsover. But anyways, I'm getting off topic. This story is wierd. Edgar Allan Poe's stories are wierd. But I'd rather read this stuff than the Scarlet Letter anyday. That book made me want to stab myself. In middle school I read Tall-Tale Heart. I'm think the Raven or something like that I don't know. I can't really remember. The Lillith comparison to Ligeia I understand. I think that's interesting I was doing some research but I haven't found much information on it. Of the information I find, it like repeats itself. I find it funny that there's this one website I found googling Lillith, Adam (Adam and Eve) first wife and the website is called straight dope. I needed a good laugh.

Vampervention

Our topic we were talking about the other day in English really got me to thinking. In pop culture vampires and werewolves are really popular and have become a huge part in movies, books and tv shows. Right now I've been really into vampires. It all started with Twilight. At the time I started reading Twilight everybody started to read it and all my friends were talking about it. I was really into those books that I read all 4 of them in about 2 weeks. That was when I realized that vampires are cool. But anyways, I've started reading the House of Night novels. In case you haven't heard of them they are about this 16-year-old girl named Zoey Redbird who got "marked" and she is transitioning into a vampyre (how it's spelled in the book) and she has to go to the house of night school where every fledgling (new vampyre) goes to learn the ways of the adult vamps. I'm reading the 3rd book, Chosen. These books are interesting...wierd...but interesting. I've gotten really into them. As soon as I pick up where I left off the night before I can't seem to put the book down. Before I read these books I was reading the Vampire Diaries books which the vampire diaries is a really good tv show and new episodes start next Thursday!!! Yay!!! I've been having some withdrawls. But I just noticed that I have read 3 consecutive series of vampire books in a row. I plan on reading the Blue Bloods and Vampire Academy whenever I finish the House of Night books. So then it will be 5. I seriously think I need an intervention, a vampervention. haha. :D I just love the fictional characters of vampires. I recently had a dream where I was a vampire, it was pretty wierd to say the least. But I'm saving that for another blog.

Stream-of-Consciousness

What are our ideals, and to what extent does it seem within our power to realize them?
The perfect America. The perfect world even. For me, nobody will be hungry. There won't be no person in the universe who is hungry. There won't be one person who is homeless. Violence will be no more. Violence will not be a word in the dictionary. There would be no more wars. Every person will be safe knowing they can step out of their doorway and not have to worry about being blown up. Families won't have problems. There wouldn't be any divorces. No left kids heartbroken from the fact that their mommy and daddy don't love each other anymore. In the perfect America, there will be no economic crisis. Everybody can get a job...no problem. No lay offs. Parents and come home knowing that they work really hard to keep a roof over their kids heads and food on thier plates. The perfect America would be like no other. This is really out of the realm of reality. None of the stuff I mentioned is possible.

How much are we in control of ourselves?
That just depends with the person, I guess. Some people allow other people to control them. I'm not saying it's a bad thing. Because in some cases people (children) allow thier parents to control them. Parents do have a huge impact on thier childrens lives. In the earlier life lessons, a child learns right from wrong just from thier parents actions. Knowing right from wrong is really important. It keeps people from fights and out of jail. You thier are consequences for your actions. So it is a good thing parents influence you. That is if they're good parents. In the exception when it's bad if other people control you, is peer pressure in teenagers. Just say no! If you say yes you allow other people to control and influence your actions and they're not aloways good they're bad. If you are in control of yourself you become a stronger individual. You will stick out from a crowd...which can be a good thing.

How well do we even know ourselves?
I'm not quite sure. I'm not quite sure if I'm even sure of myself. It's like some instances you might think you know a person but it turns out you don't. They end up pulling the wool over eyes. But that doesn't have anything to do with how you know yourself.

Scariest Experience

Here I am sitting in the living room. The sky outside looks like a yellowish greyish color. There's a storm coming. My mom is a nervous reck. She is pacing the house. The weather is on. I'm so confused. I have no idea what is going on. She tells me it's all going to be okay. My mom has gathered pillows and blankets and some supplies and throws them in the bathroom. Suddenly I hear sirens. Mom then grabs my baby brother and tells me to follow her in the bathroom. So I sit down in the bath tub with pillows surrounding me. My brother is sitting on one side of me, I hold his hand. My mom is sitting by the ledge holding me and my brother as tightly as she could. She's praying and crying. I have no idea what is going on. My heart is racing. I start to cry. I think that I'm going to die that we all are going to die. All of a sudden I hear the wind. It sounds abnormally powerful. I can hear my mom telling me and my brother to calm down, that everything is going to be okay and that this is all going to be over soon. Debris is flying every where outside as we hear it hit the side of the house. We can hear trees snapping. We can hear our front door opening and slamming. The shingles of our roof are ripping off. Just about a minute or two has passed of hearing the wind whooshing violently outside the house. All of a sudden mom realeases us from her arms. She says, "it's all over, but I'm going to check and see if everything is okay so just stay here." So my brother and I are sitting in the bath tub. Austin seems to be crying and is shaking. I take him in my arms. "It's okay." I said. It is taking my mom awhile to get back. I'm getting really nervous and scared. I told my brother I'll be back. He laid down in the tub with pillows covering him. I step out of the bathroom and run through the house. As soon as I stepped out of the house I see debris everywhere in the front lawn. I just realize that we just had a tornado. My mom is on the phone describing the damage. I assume it was my grandma or somebody. I see our shingles cover the backyard. Our neighbors tree was snapped in half and in their yard. My mom notices I'm outside and runs in the house to company my brother who was sitting in the bathroom alone. He was screaming bloody murder. I rush to my mom. She just sat my brother in the living room, gave him a kiss on the cheek and she turns around and hugs me. "I'm so glad we're safe." She finally says.