This Weekend

This is my 3rd blog today and I should be studying...but I really want to talk about my weekend. I'm looking so forward to it because *drum roll* I get to have Christmas early. Yay!! Well, like my step-dad's family are coming over to our house Saturday and I get to open presents then after they leave I get to open presents from my mom and step-dad aka santa clause :) The reason why we're having Christmas so early is because my step-dad has to work like all next week. Yeah, it's bad for him. I bet having to work on Christmas sucks. But it's good for me because I get to have Christmas early. Presents are exciting. but that's not the ONLY thing Christmas is about. Christmas is mainly about being with family and the gift of giving. I love picking out presents for people I care about. Which that reminds me today after I come home from school after my first final my step-dad is taking me with him to go shopping for my mom and I have the perfect gift in mind. I might see if we can go to a jeweler and we can pick her out like a really pretty necklace. There's nothing more romantic than a husband giving his wife a beautiful diamond necklace for Christmas. Rick wants me to with him mainly to pick her out some clothes. But we both have very different taste in clothes. So that should be interesting. Plus Rick normally gets mom necklaces and jewelery for almost every occasion. And I'm guessing he wants to get her something different this year. He already bought her bath and body works and my mom knows that it's wrapped underneath the Christmas tree. She's really smart. But I'm going to log off of blogger right now. I have some serious studying to do.

My Bestest Friend

Stephanie Schwartz...thank you so much for the gift. That was really sweet of you. I love it!!! I feel bad I didn't get you anything. I wish I should've though. You know that I'm poor. I can't afford anything. haha. But in all seriousness you're the best friend ever. I love you girl. :) I'm so lucky to have a BFF like you. You are like the bestest friend ever. I hope you have a merry Christmas. You deserve to have a great one. I should be studying for English mid-term...probably my hardest one and I'm blogging about my best friend who is really special. I don't care what anyone says about you...don't listen to them...you're awesome!!! possum. haha.

STRESS!!!!!

Yep, I've been experiencing stress the passed couple of days. These stupid mid-terms and mid-term reviews. I swear I think I'm going crazy. This English final is going to be the death of me. I would've completed my review 100% but I had other finals and crap to worry about. I guess it is my own fault. I didn't do so hot last sememster in some of my classes. And Monday night and yesterday night when I should've been studying I was watching Vampire Diaries. But I can't help it that I've been having vampire withdrawls and there hasn't been new episodes for awhile (and new episodes start back in January...I can't wait that long.) But anyways, I have to take all my white day finals. Which stinks. Yeah, I know. Today I just keep thinking to myself...just two more days...just two more days. Whoo hoo! I'm so excited for Christmas break...I'm even more excited for CHRISTMAS!!! I wish everybody has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!! :)

Disney Princesses

I ABSOLUTELY love Disney movies. They are my favorite. Especially the animated Disney princesses. When I was little I was obsessed. I had about most of the movies on vcr. Wow I feel old. Haha. But I'm thankful I was born in the 90's because I had the Disney princesses with me in my childhood. I loved them though. My mom tells me Pocahontas was my favorite. My bedroom was Pocahontas. I had Pocahontas bedsheets and wallpaper. Other than her I loved Belle. For 2 Halloweens in a row when I was 7 and 8 I dressed up as her. I had the yellow dress. And my mom fixed my hair really pretty. Plus, I love the Beauty and the Beast movie. It has a really good message to it. Belle doesn't fall in love with the charming prince like most of the princesses do. I really want to see the Princess and the Frog movie. It looks really cute. And I'm glad that she's the first black princess. All the other one's are white...with the exception of Pocahontas who was a native american...and Mulan was Chinese...Jasmin - Arabian. But I love all the movies. Makes me wonder if I'm ever going to find my prince charming and have my happily ever after. The other night I was watching clips of the movies on youtube...and I was crying. I guess I was feeling a bit nostalgic.

Freaky Dream

I had one of the wierdest dreams last night. Well it seems wierd I guess because I hardly dream about stuff that I remember the next morning, but this dream however I remember. My mom and I were in downtown Owensboro (it appears) and everything looked different. I don't know what was going on. The river seemed to be an ocean. It had waves, seemed to go on forever, and it was blue. It was the color of the ovean at Florida. And something else was wierd. Me and mom were running some arrands or something and we were standing in front of a building of some sort. I was just in my bathing suit, earlier in my dream I was swimming, and my mom was all dressed up. There was this guy there. He was about 20 or so. He was like wearing all black, had some facial piercings, and had a goatee. For some reason he was hitting on me in front of my mom and she just allowed it. And I also allowed him too. That was wierd because normally I'm not in any way attracted to guys that look like that. Not at all. I don't really know, it was wierd. I have no idea if there's a message behind that dream. If there is that would be a pretty wierd message.

Venting Some More

I'm so sick of EVERYTHING!!! Somebody shoot me. I'm just saying that as a figure of speech. I don't literally mean somebody shoot me...but I honestly wouldn't mind if somebody did because I've had it up to here (puts hand out above my head) with b.s. and people who are on my tail wanting something from me. I especially get this crap from my step-dad, mom and a bunch of other people and I most certainly do not need anymore. Somebody is always wanting something from me. I just want to be left alone if that ain't too much to ask for. But I guess apparently it's too much to ask for. I may be somewhere physically, but mentally I might not be. So just don't even bother. I WISH YOU WOULD LEAVE ME THE HECK ALONE!!! Plus, I'm stressing out over assignments and things like that that are due this week and I haven't even started on half of my assignments. But that's just my own fault. I have nobody to blame except for me. Anyways,I just wish my mom and ESPECIALLY my step-dad would understand that when I'm stressing I want to be left alone and NOT tormented or irritated etc. Normally when a person is stressed out, the last thing they need is other reasons to be stressed out. Then you end up getting really stressed over things that you shouldn't stress over too much about. And you end up getting more angry than you were. I think I've heard this line somewhere but, through every dark tunnel is a light of hope. Well through my dark tunnel there isn't light. Maybe a speck at the end of my tunnel but there isn't much light of hope because right now I basically have lost all hope. I just screamed in my pillow...well that helped get my anger and stress out...just a little bit but it's not very much. I still feel like poo. I just want Christmas to get here as soon as it can before I end up exploding with rage.

Accurate

I don't know where to start. I guess you can say that I strive to be accurate or in other words perfect. I am most definately a perfectionist. I have to be accurate about everything. If something isn't perfect it drives me crazy. Take my room for example, I have to have it spotless everytime I clean it. Or it drives me crazy. Perfect is the synonym for accurate I guess. I know nobody's perfect, but I try to be. I'm guessing it has a lot to do with birth order. I'm the oldest. So I'm really responsible and things like that.

Vent

There's so much stuff I need to vent about. I already vented about the backpacks. There's something else I should vent about that really erks me, high schoolers. Yeah, I know. Tell me about it. Well mostly the really immature, ignorant kids. They just annoy me to pieces. You are in high school now and it's time to GROW UP!!! If you don't you're not going to do good in the real world. Don't even get me started with the freshman. They think the own the school when clearly THEY DON'T!!! We'll I guess part of this is because I'm really tired like my energy is drained. And I'm like extremely irritable and easily annoyed when I'm tired. But some of these kids need to give me a break.