This Weekend

This is my 3rd blog today and I should be studying...but I really want to talk about my weekend. I'm looking so forward to it because *drum roll* I get to have Christmas early. Yay!! Well, like my step-dad's family are coming over to our house Saturday and I get to open presents then after they leave I get to open presents from my mom and step-dad aka santa clause :) The reason why we're having Christmas so early is because my step-dad has to work like all next week. Yeah, it's bad for him. I bet having to work on Christmas sucks. But it's good for me because I get to have Christmas early. Presents are exciting. but that's not the ONLY thing Christmas is about. Christmas is mainly about being with family and the gift of giving. I love picking out presents for people I care about. Which that reminds me today after I come home from school after my first final my step-dad is taking me with him to go shopping for my mom and I have the perfect gift in mind. I might see if we can go to a jeweler and we can pick her out like a really pretty necklace. There's nothing more romantic than a husband giving his wife a beautiful diamond necklace for Christmas. Rick wants me to with him mainly to pick her out some clothes. But we both have very different taste in clothes. So that should be interesting. Plus Rick normally gets mom necklaces and jewelery for almost every occasion. And I'm guessing he wants to get her something different this year. He already bought her bath and body works and my mom knows that it's wrapped underneath the Christmas tree. She's really smart. But I'm going to log off of blogger right now. I have some serious studying to do.

My Bestest Friend

Stephanie Schwartz...thank you so much for the gift. That was really sweet of you. I love it!!! I feel bad I didn't get you anything. I wish I should've though. You know that I'm poor. I can't afford anything. haha. But in all seriousness you're the best friend ever. I love you girl. :) I'm so lucky to have a BFF like you. You are like the bestest friend ever. I hope you have a merry Christmas. You deserve to have a great one. I should be studying for English mid-term...probably my hardest one and I'm blogging about my best friend who is really special. I don't care what anyone says about you...don't listen to them...you're awesome!!! possum. haha.

STRESS!!!!!

Yep, I've been experiencing stress the passed couple of days. These stupid mid-terms and mid-term reviews. I swear I think I'm going crazy. This English final is going to be the death of me. I would've completed my review 100% but I had other finals and crap to worry about. I guess it is my own fault. I didn't do so hot last sememster in some of my classes. And Monday night and yesterday night when I should've been studying I was watching Vampire Diaries. But I can't help it that I've been having vampire withdrawls and there hasn't been new episodes for awhile (and new episodes start back in January...I can't wait that long.) But anyways, I have to take all my white day finals. Which stinks. Yeah, I know. Today I just keep thinking to myself...just two more days...just two more days. Whoo hoo! I'm so excited for Christmas break...I'm even more excited for CHRISTMAS!!! I wish everybody has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!! :)

Disney Princesses

I ABSOLUTELY love Disney movies. They are my favorite. Especially the animated Disney princesses. When I was little I was obsessed. I had about most of the movies on vcr. Wow I feel old. Haha. But I'm thankful I was born in the 90's because I had the Disney princesses with me in my childhood. I loved them though. My mom tells me Pocahontas was my favorite. My bedroom was Pocahontas. I had Pocahontas bedsheets and wallpaper. Other than her I loved Belle. For 2 Halloweens in a row when I was 7 and 8 I dressed up as her. I had the yellow dress. And my mom fixed my hair really pretty. Plus, I love the Beauty and the Beast movie. It has a really good message to it. Belle doesn't fall in love with the charming prince like most of the princesses do. I really want to see the Princess and the Frog movie. It looks really cute. And I'm glad that she's the first black princess. All the other one's are white...with the exception of Pocahontas who was a native american...and Mulan was Chinese...Jasmin - Arabian. But I love all the movies. Makes me wonder if I'm ever going to find my prince charming and have my happily ever after. The other night I was watching clips of the movies on youtube...and I was crying. I guess I was feeling a bit nostalgic.

Freaky Dream

I had one of the wierdest dreams last night. Well it seems wierd I guess because I hardly dream about stuff that I remember the next morning, but this dream however I remember. My mom and I were in downtown Owensboro (it appears) and everything looked different. I don't know what was going on. The river seemed to be an ocean. It had waves, seemed to go on forever, and it was blue. It was the color of the ovean at Florida. And something else was wierd. Me and mom were running some arrands or something and we were standing in front of a building of some sort. I was just in my bathing suit, earlier in my dream I was swimming, and my mom was all dressed up. There was this guy there. He was about 20 or so. He was like wearing all black, had some facial piercings, and had a goatee. For some reason he was hitting on me in front of my mom and she just allowed it. And I also allowed him too. That was wierd because normally I'm not in any way attracted to guys that look like that. Not at all. I don't really know, it was wierd. I have no idea if there's a message behind that dream. If there is that would be a pretty wierd message.

Venting Some More

I'm so sick of EVERYTHING!!! Somebody shoot me. I'm just saying that as a figure of speech. I don't literally mean somebody shoot me...but I honestly wouldn't mind if somebody did because I've had it up to here (puts hand out above my head) with b.s. and people who are on my tail wanting something from me. I especially get this crap from my step-dad, mom and a bunch of other people and I most certainly do not need anymore. Somebody is always wanting something from me. I just want to be left alone if that ain't too much to ask for. But I guess apparently it's too much to ask for. I may be somewhere physically, but mentally I might not be. So just don't even bother. I WISH YOU WOULD LEAVE ME THE HECK ALONE!!! Plus, I'm stressing out over assignments and things like that that are due this week and I haven't even started on half of my assignments. But that's just my own fault. I have nobody to blame except for me. Anyways,I just wish my mom and ESPECIALLY my step-dad would understand that when I'm stressing I want to be left alone and NOT tormented or irritated etc. Normally when a person is stressed out, the last thing they need is other reasons to be stressed out. Then you end up getting really stressed over things that you shouldn't stress over too much about. And you end up getting more angry than you were. I think I've heard this line somewhere but, through every dark tunnel is a light of hope. Well through my dark tunnel there isn't light. Maybe a speck at the end of my tunnel but there isn't much light of hope because right now I basically have lost all hope. I just screamed in my pillow...well that helped get my anger and stress out...just a little bit but it's not very much. I still feel like poo. I just want Christmas to get here as soon as it can before I end up exploding with rage.

Accurate

I don't know where to start. I guess you can say that I strive to be accurate or in other words perfect. I am most definately a perfectionist. I have to be accurate about everything. If something isn't perfect it drives me crazy. Take my room for example, I have to have it spotless everytime I clean it. Or it drives me crazy. Perfect is the synonym for accurate I guess. I know nobody's perfect, but I try to be. I'm guessing it has a lot to do with birth order. I'm the oldest. So I'm really responsible and things like that.

Vent

There's so much stuff I need to vent about. I already vented about the backpacks. There's something else I should vent about that really erks me, high schoolers. Yeah, I know. Tell me about it. Well mostly the really immature, ignorant kids. They just annoy me to pieces. You are in high school now and it's time to GROW UP!!! If you don't you're not going to do good in the real world. Don't even get me started with the freshman. They think the own the school when clearly THEY DON'T!!! We'll I guess part of this is because I'm really tired like my energy is drained. And I'm like extremely irritable and easily annoyed when I'm tired. But some of these kids need to give me a break.

Christmas!!!

Christmas is my favorite holiday. I'm so excited. I absolutely LOVE christmas. The movies, the music, the food, being with the people you love and PRESENTS. Who doesn't love presents?! I sound really materialistic when I say that. I enjoy shopping for other people. I enjoy picking out the perfect gifts for family and friends. I don't like the cold weather at all...but hot chocolate makes cold weather enjoyable. I love hot chocoalate. Christmastime is my favorite time of year. I wish Christmas would get here already. I can't wait!!!

My Sister's Keeper

I read the book My Sister's Keeper over the summer. It's a really good read...sad...but really good. I cried, I don't know how many times. My mom came in the living room one day and saw me balling one day and she was like "are you okay?" and I was like "this book is just so sad." But anyways, I watched the movie this weekend and the ending is completely different than the book. When I was reading the book I wasn't expecting it to end the way it did, and the movie ended the way I thought it was going to. Both the book and the movie are the saddest things I think a person would ever see in thier lives. They're just both so very sad. Take The Notebook and Titanic for example. I've seen those movies no matter how many times and yet I still cry. I seem to always get so emotional. I don't know. Probably every 5 minutes throughout the movie I was crying up a storm. It's really sad. But the movie was good. The actors and actresses did a remarkable job and made everything believable.

Thanksgiving!

I'm so happy that after today, is Thanksgiving break. For Thanksgiving break I'm going to be having 3 dinners at 3 differnet families's houses. There's my dad's family, my mom's and my stepdad's. That is a lot of food. But I'm not complaing because that's my favorite part about Thanksgiving is the food. I absolutely love this time of year. All the food especially!!! I'm so thankful for food. I love love love pumpkin pie. I could eat that stuff up. That's one of my favorite things about Thanksgiving. But most of all I like this time of year because of family. I'm so thankfully for my family. I love them more than anything else in the world. Yeah, they do drive me awall sometimes...but I still love them. I'm also thankful for my friends. I don't know what I would do without them. I'm thankful for my house. There's some people in the world that don't even have a roof over they're heads. I love the leaves this time of year. Thery are really pretty. I actually enjoy raking leaves. I don't really know why. But I just love it.

Backpacks

I think it's stupid how they think that we shouldn't carry our backpacks around school after Christmas Break. We should be able to pack our backpacks around the school. I think that we should petiton over it. There's what about 3,000 students that go to this school...we could get that many signatures. I never use my locker. Whenever I do it's in the winter, becuase I stuff my really heavy coat. I walk to and from school. So I have no other choice but to wear my coat. My classes are spread out all around the school so I don't have time to get books out of my locker. But anyways, I'm going to rebel. I think every single student should rebel...boycott. I just think this is so ridiculous. We as students should not and will not let this happen.

Twilight

Just thought I'd blog about the phenomenon that sweeping the nation, the Twilight saga. I do have to admit, I'm a fan. I love Twilight as much as the next person but I'm not really obsessed like some fans. It just annoys me how people started reading the books AFTER the movie was out. Now everyone is like Twilight obsessed. And I have no idea why people go so crazy over Edward (in the movie) I love Robert Pattinson, just not as Edward. You can tell that I'm on Team Jacob. He's my chocolate chip cookie ;) I just love Taylor Lautner (who plays Jacob) he is like so ripped in the New Moon movie, I'm dying to see it. Apparently the tickets have been on sale for 3 weeks and I have just found out about it about a couple of days ago. That makes me mad. I liked the first movie and everything but I think the books are so much better than the movies.

My Future Plans

The reason why I wasn't in schools last Thursday is because I was gone to the FEA state competition in Louisville. In case you didn't know FEA stands for Future Educators Association. This is the first year for this club and I'm so glad I'm a part of it. For college I plan on going somewhere out of Owensboro. I have to get out of here before I go crazy. I think Western Kentucky University is like my dream school. I love the location and I heard the teacher's program there is great. And the campus is beautiful. As far as what grade I want to teach, I want to teach elementary school kids or special needs kids. Doesn't really matter what subject or anything. They're just so cute and I'm really good with kids. So I think that's the perfect job for me. Plus you get weekends and holidays off. Which that is great!

LHHFQPATYOR

Liam was a brat. His mother would yell at him with fury.
"Mommy I don't want to go to bed." Furiously his mother spanked him.
"Quit, yelling!" Patrica (Liam's mom) would yell. Aches made Liam's butt hurt.
"Take that," Liam threw a pillow at his mom.
"You are in so much troulble," she said.
"Oh no, I broke the lamp." Replied Liam.

If You Were Given One Day to Live Over

I don't really know. It would probably be today. Just so Mrs. McDaniel can wake up and be a new person. Mrs. McDaniel is just so snappy today. haha. I'm just messing with Mrs. McDaniel. Oh my goodness. I love Mrs. McDaniel. But in all seriousness I would re-do the day a couple of weeks ago where I was just not feeling myself. I was extremely stressed and extremely irritated for some reason I don't know exactly why. I guess it was because I didn't do any of my work the night before because I was like so over whelmed with everything so I decided like not to do any of it. Anyways, it was a bad day. So if I could do it over again I'd probably change the way I was thinking like "this is gonna be a sucky day I want to go home." Instead I should've thought "it's going to be a good day and I'm going to be happy." Then that probably would've influenced my day.

Fall Break

I just thought I'd blog today about my fall break. It was pretty good. With the future educator's club last Thursday we went to WKU and I had so much fun. We won 1st place in the PCA and theme, we came in 3rd in the banner competition. Western is a college I'm pretty sure about attending. The campus is beautiful and I met some friendly people. I got a free Big Red plush bean bag baby. It's really cute. Rig Red is probably the cutest mascot on the planet.
Last weekend I also went to Evansville. It's always fun to go to Evansville. We hung out at the mall and stopped by Toys 'R Us. My mom wanted to look around in Bed, Bath and Beyond and my little brother and little sister had whoppee cushions and they kept letting them go off while we were in the store and it was just hilarious. People can't really see my little sister through the aisles because she's so small. And people would look at us. I about died laughing. I bought some bump-its. They will not stay in my hair no matter how much hairyspay I spray on. Plus they make it look like I have a bee hive. :) It makes my hair kinda looks like Amy Winehouse's. haha.
We took my little sister to see the Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs movie. It was really cute. The title itself sounds familiar and then I realized that it's a children's book. I don't think I read that book. I'm not really sure. I just can't believe they can make a 2 hour movie out of a 10 sentence children's book. But I enjoyed that movie. It was cool the way it was 3-D.
The bad part about my fall break was my step father. Urrrgh. He makes me so angry. The other day when I was mad at him my face was as rad as a tomato. I swear it was. He just really put a damper on my fall break that one day. But other than that I had fun. Although I must say I'm very jealous of Mrs. McDaniel who got to go to Florida!! She's so lucky!!!
But it is nice to go on vacation and get out of school for awhile, and sleep in. That's my favorite part about breaks--you get to sleep in. I miss it already. :(

Loss

My dearest cousin Jimmy, passed away last month. He was 19 years old and had muscular dystrophy (was in a wheelchair). He was that one person in my family who I was close to. When we were younger we'd always play together, he was more like a best friend an older brother even. At family get togethers it was nice having him around because he was the only person around my age who I can talk to when something was bothering me. Now he's gone forever. He was one of the most nicest kids I think a person will ever meet. The funeral was one of the single hardest things I think I ever done in my life. I'm so used to seeing my family together in really happy times, celebrating holidays and birthdays but this one time was really depressing because we had lost Jimmy. He never once complained about being in a wheel chair. I miss him so much. I never thought I'd miss someone as much as I miss him. I loved him. I know he's in a better place.
R.I.P. Jimmy Marshall.

Stressing!!!

You got to admit we all get stressed out. Lately, I've been feeling really stressed out. I'm tired all the time, and I'm very easily aggitated. So much homework, has been driving me crazy. Plus my mom. She puts so much pressure on me I guess it's because I'm the oldest and she expects me to be perfect. Nobody's Perfect, like the Hannah Montana song says "nobody's perfect/I gotta work it/again and again til I get it right." :D haha. But anyways, I have to give up most of my weekend to babysit...get this...without getting paid!!! I'm going to be sitting at home for about 12 hours on both Saturday and Sunday, with a 12 and 5 year old while step-dad is at work and my mom is in Henderson working at a flu clinic. Now it's at the point where I'm not just stressed out, but I'm MAD!!! I have other things to do than watch some bratty kids. I'm not just exaggerating, they really are a pain in the butt! They never listen to me, they constantly bicker and they run around the house etc. I'm just so angry right now. I have a feeling that this weekend is NOT going to be a good one. I need a chill pill.

My Little Sister

This is kind of a story. I don't know what you will think but I still think it's cute. Okay, so this past weekend I was just sitting in the kitchen eating a pop-tart. And as I was looking out the window to the backyard I see my little sister (she's about 5) was riding her barbie car for the first time in like 2 years. She kept trying to run over our dog. Our dog is a lab and shepard mix so you can picture how big he is. Our poor dog was running for his life. But he was still wagging his tail so I don't think he was too scared. She cackles pretty loud so I can still hear her through the window. She was also riding her car forward then back, forward then back. Just back and forth. It was one of the funniest, cutest things I seen in awhile and that instance just made me smile. It definitely made my day. :)

Forgive and Forget

How do I feel about that? well that's a good question. There's been several instances where i forgave and forgotten. I'm a very forgiving person. I normally let things slide. I'm what you call a passive agressive. So it's really easy for me to forgive. The forgetting part is easy because I have a really bad memory. haha. But in all seriousness I can recall so many instances where I forgive and forget. I wish I was more blunt in the sense that I won't let people walk over me. That's the problem...
I'm way too nice.
But that's still okay because that makes me a wonderful person. :)
I keep getting off topic in my blogs.

My Childhood

I'm the oldest born so I was very spoiled. Most especially by my grandparents. There's this one picture of me I'm probably like 7 or 8 and I was posing on the side of the wall. Like I had my hand on the side of the house and my hips sticking out, head tilted to the side. It was like that for all my pictures. For almost all of my pictures I'd always have my hand on my hips or something like that. It's funny how now a days I hate my picture taken. I don't like it one bit. And back in the day I was such a girly girl. I would always dress up in my mom's clothes and I'd play with barbies and such. But now I'm like a little bit more on the tom boy side. My mom told me this story about how when my little brother was a baby I dressed him up in my baby dolls clothes. And I would stick a bow on his head. I can't remember if my mom has that picture or not.

The Never-Ending Roller Coaster of Life

Life is like a crazy roller coaster! There's ups...you feel like your on top of the world. There's downs...you feel that the world is crubling down on you. Lately for me it has been CRAZY!!! One day I will feel extremely happy like nothing can bring me down. But then the next thing I know BAM! I'm feeling like crap. I have my days...just like everybody else. Lately the've been quite frequent. I just feel like I need a break from the hectic world we live in. I wish I could stop and take a breather.

The one person that makes me feel better is my mom. Yes, my mom. She's my best friend in the whole world. I know that sounds kinda cheesey but it's true. She's like always there for me. She can be hard on me but I know she's that way because she loves me. Just like any mother and teenage daughter we do have our ups and downs. Just like a roller coaster. The other day we had an arguement (I'm not going to go into much detail about that) and I was having a bad day, so that incident didn't help me feel better at all. Eventually we made up...we apologized...and went on with our lives. The roller coaster keeps running!

Optimism

People tend to wear masks. Most especially high schoolers. We go to school with a smile on our face when really something will be eating you up alive inside. You might be okay but at the time being you don't really feel that way. I try to come to school like nothing is wrong. Life sucks sometimes. You know? Going through my parents divorce had to be really hard for me...it tore me to pieces. But I still love my dad very much. I know me and my step-dad have our differences and we don't exactly see eye-to-eye I feel like he cares about me...well to an extent. He's hard on me for a reason. Sometimes I feel like he doesn't understand me. It can be frustrating but, I'm trying to keep my cool. You learn and live!!!

Just love life!!!
Remember to smile. =D
There will come a brighter day!!!

Winter Weather Poem

Frigid winter weather is gloomy

ask yourself if the snow is ever going to melt

ice glistening, snow sticks to everything

winter weath is such a beautiful thing.

ice cycles dangling, jack frost nipping at your nose

the withering red rose is sparkling with ice

When life gets furious

in the worst of trying times

you resort to being speechless

cause your love might not survive

you wonder if there's someone to hold you

someone you can run to

when hardship comes your way

just think to yourself everyday

that life can be horrid sometimes,

but beautiful once to take the time to see...

frigid winter weather

ask yourself if the snow is ever going to melt

and when the snow does melt,

the sun is on it's way to shine